Tuesday, May 31, 2011

CD 15: wow!

Still a - on the the opk. Had to pee in a dunkin' donuts cup and test since I'm not at home. And of course it was a HUGE DD cup, too!!! It was very exciting. And awkward.

Temp today was 97.84 F. CM=light and watery. Also a little on the light creamy side. No symptoms. Just been really tired in the morning. I'm interested to see if my temp rises even more tomorrow.

Yesterday not really sure about cm, but we did go kayaking, drink some, and spend a lot of time outside! Might be why I had a high temp today.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

CD 13: Temp spike today...did I ovulate? idk.

Hello!  It's been a few days!  Here's the update.

No + opks so far, at least none that "are darker than the control line."  I've had two that are kinda close....

...but that's about as dark as the line has gotten.

CD 11: 97.09ºF  Zumba, watery CM, nausea & lack of desire to eat
CD 12: 97.07ºF  Zumba--sub for crystal--super nervous, watery CM, pain lower left side of my abdomen.  nausea & lack of desire to eat. Bed at 2:00am
CD 13: 97.83ºF  Wake up at 7:30, wateryish CM, BD pm.  Slept at 74ºF instead of 72ºF night between cd 12&13

So this morning my temp was .76º higher than the previous days temp, and it is also my highest temp so far.  I'm curious to see if my temperature stays up or if it was just a fluke.  It would mean I'm ovulating on a kind of normal day, considering I'm pretty sure nothing happened last cycle.  I hope the temp spike doesn't mean it's game over...I guess it's possible to get pregnant if I did ovulate, but it would have been a full 5 days, so I think it's unlikely.  And we did BD tonight, but if the temp spike is from ov, it would mean too late, and that we missed it.  So I'm kind of excited to temp tomorrow.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

CD 10: TMI

So TMI, but I've pooped like, 5 times today.  Literally, every single time that I've gone to the bathroom.  WTF body.  WTF.   And it's soft-ish and weird.  Not really weird.  Just soft.  And it's been a normal amount every time.  Also weird.

Along with that, we have nausea starting late this afternoon.  At first I just thought it was being nervous about Zumba and the cup of iced coffee I had this afternoon, but it has lasted all night.  I had maybe 10 bites of my chili, and then I felt sick.  And thirsty.  So I made myself a cup of yummy chocolate milk, which I drank, but also made me feel sick.  Almost couldn't finish it.  It's all a bit odd.

Temp today was 97.18ºF.  Yesterday I was mistaken.  It was actually 97.12º.  CM today was on the light side, but was there.

I think I felt agitated today.  I know that I did yesterday.  I get so annoyed sometimes.  I mean, some of the things I feel that I have a right to be frustrated with.  Others, not so much.  I just hate when I get all angry and annoyed but there's not much I can do about it.

Feeling agitated right now.


Wednesday, May 25, 2011

CD 9: No dry days yet!

I changed my chart.  Orange is light/sticky, Yellow is creamy/regular, and green is heavy/ewcm.  I feel much better.  And I just won't color in at all on really dry days.

opk today = negative.  Taken at 8:00pm
CM today = sticky, but I definitely felt it on my underwear as if there was some watery quality to it.
Temp = 97.02ºF  Still low :)  Hoping to see it rise in the next 10 days or so!

Bought Positive Discipline on Amazon.com today.  Should have it Friday!  I'm very excited about all of the emphasis on positivity lately.  The methods work, too.  When I babysit, I test the theories.  It's truly amazing.  Positivity works wonders.  And why wouldn't it?  Who likes to be yelled at and made to feel insignificant?  Not me!  I'll let you know how the book is when I get it.

Ta! Ta!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

CD 8. Almost changing my mind about how I chart CM...

As you can see from yesterdays pic, I don't chart CM the same way TCOYF suggests.  I have color codes. Red=AF, Red slashes =Spotting, Orange=dry, yellow=regular, green=lots/ewcm.  However, on days like today, I find those just don't cut it.  I was like a 2/5, not a 1/5,3/5, or 5/5...you know?

Temp today was 96.98ºF.  CM = 2/5.  On the dryer side, but definitely there.  Last cycle this time there was NOTHING.  So I think it's an improvement.  Stomach was bothering me a little bit this morning.  May have just been gas though.  It didn't last more than about 5-10 minutes.

Took an OPK today.  NADA.  Even the control line was faint.  Took the opk @ 10pm.  I'll try to bring an opk with me tomorrow and test somewhere...like work....or something....might be a tad on the creep side, but that's ok.  I may decide to just wait until I get home.

BD yesterday :)  Can't remember if I recorded that or not.

Monday, May 23, 2011

CD 7 All is well and normal so far!

All of my temperatures have been below 97.37ºF so far, with the lowest being today at 96.88ºF.  I had very light bleeding for AF, which in reading, I now believe may mean that I did not ovulate.

CD 5 & 6: very light, dull pain.  Also super light spotting--so light that it was really just lightly tinted CM.  Very wet vaginal sensation though on both days, despite not really being all that wet.  I felt a sharp pain somewhere, can't remember exactly where now...I'd like to say my jaw?  Just taking note.  I don't think it really means anything.  

CD 4, 5 & 6:  Worked LOTS!  On my feet 14 hours cd4, 12 hours cd5, and 6.5 hours on cd6.  Friday and Saturday were a little stressful, Sunday was a great day though.  Went to Logan and Tracy's afterwards for a bbq, a little brewski, movie watching, and ice cream!  YUM.

Today is Monday, so that means I'm off of work!  Husbie is home too :)  It is a good day.

Friday, May 20, 2011

CD 4! Worried about a short luteal phase..

First, Temp for CD 3: 97.01ºF
Temp today: 97.20ºF

Still spotting, no real symptoms or anything out of the norm.

I'm worried about TTC until I know my cycle b/c I could miscarry if my luteal phase is too short.

Is this a legit concern?  I think so.  Must read more....

Thursday, May 19, 2011

CD 3: Chemicals in baby products?

Ah yes, must love the carcinogens in nursing pillows and baby mattress pads!


So today is CD 3.  And my period is pretty much non-existent already.  1 1/2 days and that's it?  Very very odd.

Didn't have any cramping today or anything, just a little soreness.  No symptoms or anything really, not that I can remember anyways.

Bought Taking Charge of Your Fertility today.  Very excited.  It's very highly talked about.  I'm happy to make the decision to quit birth control forever.  Why take it when we can just be careful of a few days each month?  No reason to!  Exactly.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

CD 2 I'm loving my chart so much that....

I might try to re-create it in Adobe® Illustrator and see if I can't sell it!  I think I'd make it to be used for 4 cycles, just like mine is.  I would probably have to include pens in 4 different colors though, since the 4 cycles will be on top of each other.  This also makes them easier to compare, in my opinion.  You'll really be able to see how regular your cycle is, if at all.

Just a thought.  I don't think it would be that difficult.  Might give me something to do.

My cramps have completely gone away...yay!
Still perioding.
Cried over my Zumba® class b/c no one showed up.
Tired/Dragging--but I think that's from only drinking 1 cup of 1/2 caff today

Temp:  97.34ºF

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

CD 1:Holy giant basal temp chart, batman!

I did have one that was 4 pieces of graph paper taped together, but today was day 1 of temping and my temp was lower than my lowest number on my stupid chart, so...yeah.  I got angry and went to Walgreens to buy a poster board, which is what I'm in the middle of constructing at the moment.

I'm considering making it so that I can use this same chart for 4 cycles.  Make the numbers along the top cycle day, and then temps along the side.  Then I'll just chart in a different color each cycle, and track CM in 4 different rows along the bottom.

The doctor is going to think I'm loony when I come into the office with this....


Ok so symptoms:

  • Cramps 3.5 on a scale of 0-5
  • Emotional -got really upset over a crinkled poster board.  Straightened house a little.
  • Weird stretchy-like soreness between my legs.  Not the opening--but the actual bones or whatever.  Very odd feeling.  Dont' really know how to describe it.  I've had this before though.

No sore boobies or anything else.

Basal Temp: 97.37ºF

Monday, May 16, 2011

Guess who's bleeding?!

I am!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I promptly went to Walgreens and bought a Basal Thermometer! It says no need to track temp while AF  is present, but I may anyways just to into a routine of doing it.  My doctor is going to think I'm a loon with all my charts and things.  Oh well.  I'm interested to see if I'm ovulating or not.

So hello CD 1.  Lets hope for something more regular this time!

Will tomorrow be CD 1?


I just went urine and when I wiped I noticed that it was the tiniest teensiest bit brown.  So I wrapped my finger in TP and checked...and it's indeed a teensy bit brown! But I've been having cramps for DAYS now, so I don't know for sure what this means.  I suppose it's probably AF, but you know what?!  I'll take it!  Guess I should put a tampon in JIC....

Discovered a new donut shop!

Which means I stuffed 3 of them down my face over the past 5 hours.

The maple bacon one was exquisite, I must say.

Anyhoo, lite-med CM, nothing crazy.  POAS today, and I'm going to say BFN.  Could swear I saw a tiny inkling of something an hour later--but I'm fairly certain I'm mistaking, so we're going to leave it at BFN.  I'll retest in about 3 days and see how I feel then.

CD 53,  I believe.  If I don't start before my DR appt on June 6, I'll be on cd 76.  I wonder if they'll do anything to help me get AF started, or if I'll really have to wait 14 more days..?

Time will tell.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

I had a good title for today, but I forgot what it was.

CD 52!

Not overly wet in the CM department, but enough to have me trotting off to make sure I didn't start AF.

No worries,  I didn't.  GRAR!

Still a general crampy-like soreness though all day.  What are you up to, uterus?

Edit** Almost barfed this morning while taking my prenatal.  Now normally that's par for the course, however, this time it was before I even tried to swallow it.  The taste of the vitamin tainting the water almost took me out.  That's never happened before....

Saturday, May 14, 2011

CD 51, and enough with cramps already!

No sign of AF except for the cramps that have been going on for days and days.  I'm about over going "oh! if THAT'S not a cramp, I don't what is! **chuckle, chuckle**" and then......nothing.

Come, or don't come, but enough of this fake out bull crap.

So, as you can guess...today's symptom list includes CRAMPS.  Nausea/lack of desire to eat, and that's it, I guess.

Not peeing on a stick today.  What's the point.  The last time we bd was 15 days ago, so I don't think I'm pregnant.

Going to drive around now.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Today is the end of CD 50. Ugh.

POAS this morning.  Nada.  Not posting another picture of a blaring SINGLE line.

Not today, anyways.

Whatever.  That's ok.  I knew my chances were slim this month having no idea if/when I ovulated.

Keep feeling really light, almost unnoticeable cramps though.  Again, could be my imagination...but I swear I keep feeling it.  When and checked to make sure I wasn't bleeding all over the place...yeah....just sweat.  (Doing a Zumba® Demo outside in FL!)  And still craving sweets.  I guess that's normal enough for anyone though.  Feeling nauseated at some foods--tostinos frozen pizza...I feel like I said that already though.  Something yesterday too, but I can't remember what.

Super tired.  Where are you, AF?!

How am I going to get pregnant before my pre-prenantal appt if you don't show up!?

(trying to minimize the amount of blood I have sucked from my stupid arms)

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Cd...I don't even know anymore. I lost count.

Ah yes, CD 48.  Are you kidding me.  40 fricken 8. Holy bleh.

I thought I felt one little cramp today, but I may have imagined it.  I don't even know what's real anymore when it comes to what my body is doing.  Lots of CM again--but I still deem it to be tainted by hoo hoo medicine.  Tonight is the last night, btw--just in case anyone was worried.  My pj bottoms are crusty in the crotch--if that gives you ANY idea of how nasty this crap is.  I'd put on a different pair, but why nastify 2? I'll just wear these again tonight and then wash them afterwards.   **shudder**

I guess at least it isn't gross until after I fall asleep.  Kind of like how you work out but don't get sore until 2 days later....or get pregnant but don't have to give birth for 9 months, or eat refried beans but don't get gas for another 15 minutes.  You get the idea.

Nipple soreness--on a scale of 0-5, I'd say 0.2 .  Only sore if I mash on them.  I might be imagining the 0.2.  It might be just plain 0.  Better leave it at 0.2 just to be safe.

Only ate 1 piece of Tostino's pizza for dinner.  It made me a tad nauseous.  I've been super thirsty this even, and I've also been craving sugar.  Bad BAD BAD.  Must quit the cookies.  My brain has been kinda loopy.  I ran over a median in the Walgreens parking lot on Monday. I was parked right next to it--the median was on the passenger side of the car.  Anyways, I pulled forward and I guess I thought it ended at the light post--WRONG!  I barreled over it like a champ!  My husband was like W.T.F.  lol.  I have to replace all of the plastic covering underneath my car now.  I apparently dented the oil pan...oops.  I swear I didn't see it.  It scared the crap out of me, I'll tell ya that much!

Oh yeah, my POASs came in the mail!  I shoved them in my pretty POAS box, but there are so many the lid won't shut.

At least I feel like I can POAS any time I want!  I think I have 35 of them :D  And I have like, 60 LH tests.  **Grin**

I'm exhaused, so off to bed!  

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Yuck Yuck Yuck.

I felt like I had mayo falling out of hoo-hoo this morning.  Bleh.  Can't va-jay-jay medicine just absorb into my body and not do gross things?  Nope.  Must be as gross as possible, I suppose.

So I guess I can't really track CM....although I can't possibly imagine that ALL OF THAT fit into the tiny little capsule that I inserted...so 3 options then.  1.  It did all fit into that little stupid capsule  2.  I had lots of CM and va-jayjay medicine come out or 3. The va-jayjay medicine MAKES me have more CM.

I really don't know.  It's just gross, ok?  Ok.

I seem to be hungry or snacky lots the past 2 days.  I think I'll test in the morning again.  I ordered more POASs from amazon.com, they should be in tomorrow.  I was hoping they'd be here today since I only have one POAS left.

Yup yup yup.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Monistat for the hoo-hoo

So I texted my friend who is a nurse at an OB office in NY.  I asked about the recurring itchiness with my period and now suddenly I'm having itchiness with no period....typical.

She said it's not weird, try 3 day Monistat.  So that's what I'm doing.  $16 at Walgreens.  Apparently yeast infections are common during pregnancy!  You know what that means, right?  Yes!  That I'm adding it to my delusional symptoms list.  The directions look complicated.  You have to stuff it in there and then lay down so that it doesn't leak out.  Then they say to wear your least favorite underwear in case it gets ruined from the medicine.  So not only do I feel icky from the itching and disgusting discharge (no smell thank god), but I also get to wear my bottom of the drawer granny panties for 3 days!  No tampons, either. (good thing no AF I guess or that would really suck) And my other concern--I teach Zumba® for cryin' out loud.  I'm probably going to wiggle the medicine right out and all over myself.  Lovely.  Just lovely.

Well, hopefully it works so we can get back to BDing to catch the egg that may or may not be lingering around somewhere.

And here's to hoping the infection goes away for good and quits this coming back every cycle bull poo!

CD 46! I'm now contemplating ways to make AF show up...

With my nipples being sore the last few days I decided to test today.

Thats, right.  You guessed it! BFN!

Lots of CM today.  I think it may be related to a bacterial infection though.  The same bacterial infection that I used to get every month when AF showed....  So now I'm getting the bacterial infection but no AF.  I'm a little grumpy about this.  

Here's what I've found out about this:

Vulvovaginal candidiasis (also known as yeast infections or thrush)

This infection is often found in association with certain other conditions including pregnancy, Aids and diabetes. In addition, the use of oral contraceptives, broad-spectrum antibiotics, corticosteroids and immunosuppressive drugs may increase the risk of acquiring this infection.


A distinguishing symptom of VVC is a white vaginal discharge that may have a texture resembling that of cottage cheese. It is usually odourless.This is often accompanied by itching, frequency of urination as well as a burning sensation when passing urine. It may be accompanied by redness and swelling of the vulval area. Tiny cuts or fissures in the skin can also occur. Painful intercourse is also common with this infection.
Vaginal candidiasis commonly occurs during pregnancy. The infection is usually harmless, but a few cases of infection of the newborn have been reported where an infection had gone untreated during pregnancy. Treatment is with local vaginal suppositories or cream e.g. clotrimazole (such as Canesten). Oral ketoconazole is contra-indicated during pregnancy. If you are pregnant, do not administer any treatment without the advice of your doctor.
Candida hyphae sometimes penetrate under the vaginal epithelial cells. The infection then tends to recur repeatedly during menstruation. To prevent recurrence, vaginal suppositories or cream can be inserted into the vagina a few days before and a few days after menstruation for two to three months. Oral treatment can also be used once a month for a period of 6 months in this situation.

So I'm going to ask my friend that works as a nurse in an OB/GYN office about this and see what she recommends.  More later.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

CD 44.

I know these daily updates are a tad silly, but I like to keep track of any symptoms or changes.

CM = a decent amount.  Not a ton to where I was really worried about bleeding, but visible when wiping and on my underwear.  Nipples still sore, a 1 on a 0-5 scale.  No cramps.

I'm exhausted, and my brain was seriously not working today, but I taught Zumba® this morning at 8:30-9:30 and then worked 7 1/2 hours, running around trying to get ready for Mother's Day brunch tomorrow.  I'm sitting down right now and it feels SO GOOD.  I can't believe I have to drive down to Vero right now...

Also, Chef made me try a bite of crab salad and I had to suppress a gag.  I think that's pretty normal for me though.

I can't believe I'm making myself wait until CD 50 before testing again.  I feel like my period will never come because I'm waiting for it to come.  And then there's always my irrational though...."what if I'm preg and don't know it?!"  Here I am enjoying my coffee and occasional alcoholic beverage--which I guess technically is ok, I'm just afraid of hurting my imaginary fetus.

Friday, May 6, 2011

I guess I was JK about AF...

Still nothing.

CD 43...going on 44
Medium CM today, was itchy this morning, but not really at all since.  Nipples are sore, not the whole thing, mostly just the tip of them.  I kind of lost my energy starting at lunch time yesterday.

Super tired right now, but it is really late, so I suppose that would be normal.

If I don't start by CD 50, I'll test again.

So aggravating.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

CD 42. But I may be nearing the end of my wait....

Still no AF!  Lots of CM though.  White, creamyish.  Kept thinking I was bleeding all over the place.  Ugh.  

I was a tad itchy today, and for the past 6 months or so, I have been itchy right before/during AF.  I think I may have some sort of bacterial infection.  Anyways, I'm thinking it's a sign that it's coming.  Which is good, I guess.

Not really much cramping.  Just a touch, and really low.  Nipples still a little sore.  More so than yesterday.

That wraps up today's exciting events!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

CD 41...running out of POASs

Yeah, got excited this morning...

But again nothing.  Not sure why I'm surprised.  I keep squinting at it, but it doesn't seem to help.

At this point I'd be happy if AF showed so I can start temping.  Felt a little nauseous today, upper stomach though, like nervous sick to my stomach more than "move out of the way so I can VOM" sick to my stomach.  Slept kinda weird last night--I was really restless this morning.  Woke up with my pillows all out of whack.  Didn't really notice any cramping today.  A little bit of CM-noticed it when wiping mostly.  Nothing excessive though.  Had a little bit of an upset stomach this afternoon.   Could have been all the tea I had, or maybe something from lunch?  My nipples feel the teensiest bit sensitive,  they'd be a 1 on a scale of 0-5.  I think I have 2 poas left.  I'll save them for CD 50 and CD 60...?

ha, we'll see...

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

CD 40, going on 41. Meh.

This was from yesterday:

Another blaring negative! bleh.

So today, CD 40:  Lots of cramping in the form of soreness.  This has been going on for the past 3-4 days in medium intensity.  Today was definitely noticeable.  I thought I was going to start AF.  Nope.  Nothing. Nothing at all.  Today I noticed a metallic taste in my mouth.  Weird.  No sore boobies still.  I ate 2/3 of a sleeve of girl scout cookies about 20 minutes ago.  Not too much CM, but some--yellow on my underwear and clearish when wiping.  I seriously can't believe I haven't started my period yet.  This is nutty.  BC sucks.  Oh also, I gagged twice today!  (not sure why I'm excited about this)  At work we have creamed herring (barf) and anchovies (double barf).  Of course I always consider them disgusting and try not to sniff them too much, but today the smell of them actually made me physically gag.  I didn't even think anything of it until about 10 min after gagging the second time...and then I was ...oo.  Smell sensitivity.  Hm...  So I'm just noting it here.

I may start peeing on LH sticks again just so I can see two lines.  I miss those two lines.  Did you know that I've already peed on like, 7 hCG sticks?!  That's stupid.  I'm going to hold on for a few days before testing again.  Maybe get some more BDing in.  If husbie feels up to it, that is.  6 successful times so far this cycle, and 3 not so successful times.  But that's really good!  Especially for us!  We're always so dang tired.  Like now.  The last thing I feel like doing is BD.  Maybe tomorrow in the shower.  That makes for easy cleanup too.

Zumba® class tomorrow!  I still have to officially cancel my classes.  I'm going to be enjoying life--working with another instructor hopefully, and just enjoying taking other people's classes.  It will be a nice change of pace, I think.  I'm pretty excited.  Thursday should be fun.  Convention is soon!  I wonder if I'll be pregnant? Time will tell, I suppose.

Time will tell.  :)