Friday, December 30, 2011

32 Weeks, 3 Days: 53 Days Remaining!

I can't even believe it!

I'm so excited to start my HypnoBirthing classes next Wednesday--you don't even know!  I'm trying not to think about being scared, and I'm trying to surround myself with positive stories and experiences, but I'm still nervous.  I mean, the reality of it is that he has to come out.  One way or another, he has to enter the world.  I'm so nervous!  Well, I'm nervous if I think about it too much.  I think right now it's still hanging around in that denial part of my brain.  Like, I haven't really embraced the fact.  I've thought it through and pictured it a million times, but I don't know.  I still think I'm going to wig out when I actually go into labor.  You know?

Little nudger is moving around right now.  Must be the coffee!! (Don't worry, it's just half caff!)

Starting Jan 1st, our new budget goes into place!  Nervous about this too!  My step-mom helped me set up this whole Excel spreadsheet thing to track it all.  I got the idea from the book America's Cheapest Family.  They suggest have separate "folders" within your account that list different things.  For example. you have $100 in your savings account--You'd have maybe $10 in the "fun money" folder, $15 in the "medical needs" folder, $5 in the "pet care" folder, $20 in the "car maintenance folder", $15 in the "clothes and grooming" folder, $10 in the "vacation" folder, and $25 in the "emergency savings" folder.  The idea is that every month you add money to these categories so that you have funds for your car registration, license renewal, walk in clinic co-pay, etc etc and you don't have to guess whether you "have enough" money or not.  I really like this idea, and it's an idea that I can understand.  I'm a very tangible person--I'd rather do this with real dollars in real envelopes, but I know that it's better to have it an a bank account, so I'm working on the computer part of it lol.  This is why my step-mom had to step in.  She's really good with Excel.  I got about 3/4 of the way there and then my brain just couldn't do any more.  I'm still trying to wrap my head around how Jan works out--because obviously I'm not starting at $0.  I guess I'm just entering all of our data into January and adding to it from there?

We're canceling our internet on Jan 4th!  SCARY!  BUT--the good news is this might not be as permanent as we thought!! Kevin got the Service Advisor position at the dealership!  So now he's not going to just be a parts guy anymore--he's going to be a service guy!  And it's going to be great.  He's going to be bringing home more money, so we can have more of a cushion!  I'm SO happy for him!  And for us, but mostly for him.  He deserves this.  He's worked hard there for 7+ years and it's about time he finally got a real raise!  So as soon as we start seeing the bigger checks, I can adjust our budget sheet accordingly.  But until then we'll assume the worst and hope for the best.

Off to check the bank account!

Saturday, December 24, 2011

31 Weeks, 4 Days: Christmas Eve

No Christmas Tree this year.  I knew that we had enough stuff to do with preparing for Little Chicken that I wouldn't want to add taking down Xmas decor on top of it.  The floor is still a mess, for one.  And I have all sorts of cleaning things that I imagine magically getting done between now and Feb 21st.  So yeah.

With that said, I do think we are going to go look at some Christmas lights tonight!  Should be fun!  We're making Cake Pops today as gifts for our friends and family.  They're pretty cool.  There is some challenges that I didn't expect though--for one, I didn't expect the candy coating to crack on some of them.  I realized that the cake pops were too cold and the candy coating was shrinking--and cracking.

Weighing in at like 135.  Hoping to NOT gain more than 140 according to my scale.  That only leaves me 5 more pounds.  Bleh.

Baby is moving lots!  Less jabbing now, more rolling.  It's funny because my whole stomach looks like a wave when he rolls around.  Too cute.  And he gets hiccups!  They're super close together, almost like a really slow heart beat.  I find this odd.  Apparently it's normal though. I can't believe we're down to the last 8 weeks.  This is so insane! Still trying to grasp the concept that there is a human being in my stomach right now.  A real person!  I know it's normal and all that, but when I look down, it's all just so crazy.  A new little person is chilling in my stomach.  Just nudging away.  Kevin said it really started to hit him when he had his hands on my stomach while I was sleeping and he was kicking and rolling around in there.  Made him really realize that Lil' Chicken has a mind of his own and is doing his own thing, even when I'm unconscious.  I'm glad he got to feel that :)  I can't wait to meet our little boy!

I got Kev a Daddy Diaper Bag filled with all sorts of diaper baggy things for Christmas!  I think he likes it, but I think he'll like it more when he actually gets to use it.  The only thing is that it's smaller than I thought it was going to be....but maybe that's a good thing.  I wanted Kev to have his own little thing for the baby--a daddy thing.  So much is mommy and baby--it's every where.  And I wanted Kev to have something that was just his to use with Lil' Chicken.  It's pretty cool.  I hope it holds up.

Just wanted to update.  It's been a while, so thought I'd pop in :)

Saturday, December 10, 2011

29 Weeks, 4 Days: Getting to the home stretch!

So I know it's been a while since I've posted, but I do keep journal on paper in a real book, too.  So I kind of switch back and forth between writing here and writing there.  I figure I'll eventually have this blog made into a book just to have :)  Then I'll have the blog book and the journal book.  Pretty cool.

Weighing in at like, 134 right now.  Hoping to NOT gain more than 6 more pounds! Better keep my pregnant tush moving!

Anyways, so earlier I was heating up some chicken nuggets in the toaster oven, and while I was waiting I was playing with Little Chicken's foot (he kept pushing it against my hand) and I was touching his foot when the timer went off on the toaster oven.  He jumped!  It was so cute!  I felt a little bad, too, but it was still cute.  Poor baby!  He has no idea what all is going on out here.  Must be weird being in a dark cubby hole like that.  I guess it's all he knows...but I still can't wait until he comes out to play.  We're going to have so much fun!  I have so many cute clothes for him.  I keep finding things!  I know he's going to outgrow them so fast, but still.  I want him to be stylin'!  And I have to take pictures.  Lots and lots and lots of pictures.  He will only be little for a short time.

I can't wait to meet him!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 26, 2011

27 Weeks, 4 Days: The holidays are going to go by quick!

With Thanksgiving comes the time warp that is going to be the countdown to Lil' chicken!!  Thanksgiving, Black Friday, Christmas, New Years, Valentines Day, Lil' chicken!  (Hopefully in that order).

I worked on Thanksgiving--it was all good though.  Got fed really well LOL.  I have been blessed with having Friday and Saturday (today and yesterday) off so I'm really NOT going to want to go back to work tomorrow morning haha.

Went shopping yesterday!  Got all sorts of stuff.  Let me take pictures and I'll post them for you :)

Diaper Bag: $28
Diapers and wipes:  Big box $43 (had coupon)
+ got free wipes
40 Pack $8 (coupon) + $0.97 wipes!
Blue and White shirt: BOGO, $5.50
Striped Shirts: $6, $7.50
Pants! $6 each
This is Lil' Chicken's closet so far
To the left is 0-3 months, and the sizes get bigger up to 6-9 months on the right.
I also got 3 shirts for me, Seasons 3 & 4 of Dexter, the game Cootie, consignment clothes for Lil' Chicken (in closet), and got our XBox repaired.  I also also got 2 new litter boxes, 2 new scoops, and a cardboard cat scratcher.  We've had the same litter boxes for like, 3 or 4 years--I think it's time to give the cats fresh ones.

I think my dad and stepmom are coming over today--I feel like I should clean up the house.  A lot.  He's allergic to cats, for one....and two the house is just a mess.  I haven't quite convinced myself to get up yet to do anything though.

Weighing in at 129 today!  Yay!  I've maintained my weight for about 6 weeks now.  Pretty crazy.  And good.

Belly Pic!  Just got home from Zumba®


I have my glucose test coming up this week.  I really hope I pass.  I do NOT want GD.

Anyways, I think I'm going to think about making something to eat and then clean up.  Sigh!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

25 Weeks, 5 days: So much to do!

I so desperately need to make a list of things to get done before Lil' Chicken arrives, but I'm afraid that if I make a list, I'll just be really overwhelmed and not want to do any of it.  I get overwhelmed just thinking about all of the things that need to be done.

Ok.  Fine.  I'll make a list.


  1. Finish floor project--ripping up all of the carpet and putting down vinyl wood panels
  2. Go through everything and get rid of unnecessary things! 
    1. chemicals
    2. books
    3. clothes
    4. toiletries (you know, the 800 bottles of lotion that never get used...)
    5. etc..
  3. Clean sliding glass door and all the crap that's in the door track
  4. Fix front door and put in a peep hole
  5. De-mildew the front porch
  6. Run washing machine cleaner through the washing machine
  7. Clean the garbage disposal
  8. Clean and bleach the garbage can
  9. Finish re-upholstering the glider rocking chair!!!!!!!!
  10. Finish Lil' Chickens crochet blanket
  11. Replace the A/C filter
  12. Replace the water filter
  13. Re-organize and clean ENTIRE KITCHEN.  Maybe insist on new cabinets.  I hate the kitchen.  I don't even want to think about it right now.
  14. Clean the bath tubs.  They are red and gross.
  15. Clean the bathrooms and toilets in general
  16. Dust the whole stupid house.
  17. Get rid of all of the cat hair.  This is an endless project.
  18. Do something about the garage.
  19. Did I mention the cat hair??
  20. Clean the fake plants
  21. Clean the dust off the top of the cabinets.  This goes along with #13
  22. Clear the stupid coffee table and do something about the tv tray in Empire.
  23. Clear my bed side table
  24. Figure out what needs a "home" and get totes/bookshelves/or whatever to put it in.
  25. Re-do our closet.  It's not effective.
  26. adhapoh akj df;aoisdij f;la 
ugh.  I shouldn't have made a list.

Monday, November 7, 2011

24 Weeks, 6 Days: Looking at HypnoBirthing

Ok, so I'm still 128 pounds--ACTUALLY, I'm 127 pounds....which means that I haven't gained any weight since 10/12/11!!! Almost a month!  Ha!  I may stay at 140 pounds yet! Would love to come in just under 140 pounds...but we'll see.  I think I'll be happy with 140.  That would be gaining 28 pounds, which isn't too bad.  25 would be better, but I'll take what I can get.  I have really been trying to not over eat and snack, which I haven't been super successful at, however I have cut out my extra meal I was eating every day.  Every day after work, at around 4:00pm, I was starving and getting some sort of something to eat--Panera, Jason's Deli, McDonalds, BK, etc.  So I've cut that out.  I think it's helping.  Now I'm saving money and calories!  Yay.  I wonder what I'll be at my DR appointment next Monday...?

Ok so on to my post subject.



I would love to take a HypnoBirthing class!  Apparently there's an instructor in Vero and in Orlando, so I at least have a decent chance at getting to go to one!  I have no idea how expensive this is...someone on WTE said around $500.  Ouch!  I'm thinking about having my grandmother ask people for a cash gift for my baby shower so I can go to this class.  I'll just tell her we have a ton of stuff, so what we could really really use is to go to this birthing class.  I think she'll agree with the hypnobirthing thing.  I couldn't find any class information on the website, but I emailed the lady to see if I can get info.  Hopefully there is something coming up!

My Halloween quilt is coming along nicely.  I've already decided that my next project is going to be a quilted advent calendar!

By Pink Chalk Studio

So I'm trying to make my own pattern based off of this image.  I figure it will be great for Lil' Chicken to be able to count down to Christmas with this every year!  My family had one when I was growing up, and it was so fun fighting with my siblings to see who would get to put an ornament on the tree every night.  It's super cute, and fun--and I think it will make a nice family tradition.

I can't wait until Lil' Chicken is here.

He woke me up with his wiggling this morning :)  I love watching my belly move when he starts flopping around.  Only 15 more weeks.  That is so insane to me.  He will be here before we know it.  Wow.  I need to get baby shower info to my peoples.  Maybe I'll work on that today.  I really really want to go to Joanne's to get some Xmas fabric, but I don't really have any money.  I don't need a lot, I'm trying to decide what to do about the pockets--all different patterns, or 5 different fabrics, and 5 pockets of each?  Should I put numbers on the pockets?  Like, 1, 2, 3...all the way to 25?  I think I'd like that, however I can't figure a color--I don't want it to be too much going on.

Ok, so I just filmed my belly moving!  I'm uploading it now....



Ok so it's all stretched out and weird, but the kicks are at :16, :31, :44, and 1:14.  Those are the bigger ones any ways, there are other ones but I can hardly see them at all in the video.  Yay Lil' Chicken!

Monday, October 31, 2011

23 weeks, 6 days: Picture post!

So many things going on!

I had my Zumba Zbaby baby shower last Saturday--I am so speechless.  Those crazy girls got us a travel system w/ carseat from graco, a pack and play, clothes, diapers, baby tub, and more!  I have to seriously get the gift list from Crystal and crank out some thank you notes.

Graco Travel System
Baby Trend Pack n' Play
Super Awesome Diaper Cake
Kevin painted my belly as an "M&M mini"!!

Had a lazy day today.  I almost feel like I wasted my day!  I think I'm just so overwhelmed with everything that needs to get done,  I didn't even know where to start.  The house is a mess, we need to do laundry, finish the floor, continue to get rid of things we don't need, re-organize the kitchen area...bleh.  Plus we desperately need to get our finances in order.  Next week, things are going to be uber uber tight until Kevin gets paid, which is probably NEXT Monday.  It might get a little scary until then! We got the book "The Cheapest Family in America" which is pretty awesome.  It's funny though, most of the things in there are ideas I've kicked around, just never put to use with any consistency.  I guess that's the problem.  I know HOW to be thrifty, we just don't do it.  So we're trying again.  This time, we need to succeed.

Ok, here's my bump @ almost 24 weeks!

Gettin' Big!
I'm at 128 pounds, and feeling lots of movement now.  Today he moved quite a bit--I sat on the couch most of the day, so he was awake lots :)  Yay, Lil' Chicken!

Monday, October 24, 2011

22 weeks, 6 days

So I was babysitting and sitting on the couch and I could SO feel Lil chicken moving with my hand!!! I'm really excited. He must be getting big!!

I'm still at 127 pounds this morning. Yay, me! That means no weight gained this past week. I've tried to cut back some on the extra meals and stuff. Don't want to be a fat ass!

Can't believe we're almost in 3rd trimester. Wow.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

22 weeks, 1 day

So I dreamt that Carson was born, and I had him at home when it suddenly occurred to me that I should probably be breast feeding him at some point. So I went to go get him, but he wasn't a baby. He was Zac (my brother). Zac told me that he wasn't going to breast feed, he would take the bottle instead. So I went to go get my breast pump and I realized I'd have to use the old hoses. I also realized I didn't know how to do it. I squeezed my nipples, but I don't think anything was coming out.

Weird.

127 pounds today

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

22 weeks: I just want...

I just want Lil' Chicken to have an easy birth. That's all. I guess that's all every one wants. I just read a bunch of birth stories and most of them ended in piton, epidurals, and c-sections. I sooo do NOT WANT this. Ugh!

Saturday, October 15, 2011

21 weeks, 4 days: Crocheting is my new hobby

I decided that I was going to crochet Lil' Chicken a blanket!  It's coming right along :)  I also want to crochet him a robot toy.  It is going to be really cute.  Kinda hard learning to crochet in the round though. I'd also also like to crochet him a hat, but I picked this really furry, soft, ridiculous fabric that is virtually IMPOSSIBLE to crochet with.  So THAT should be interesting.

I'm weighing in at around 127 pounds.  UGH!  Feeling fat.  REALLY hoping to NOT go above 140 pounds.  I somehow doubt that this is going to be the case though. How have I gained 15 pounds already?!?!  The baby only weighs about 1 pound!  grr..

Besides that, I'm dealing with lower back pain.  The right side is more of a dull ache that bothers me, the left side feels more like sciatic pain--but reading more about it, I'm not sure that's what it is.  I read that sciatica affects the legs more than the back--but for me, the pain is a combination.  It cramps in my lower back and then the pain shoots down my leg, sometimes causing my leg to give out on me.  This is not only painful, but also highly obnoxious.

Lil' Chicken is moving around right now :)  Now I can't wait to be able to feel him from the outside so Kevin can feel him!!! It's so surreal that we're going to have our own littlest chicken in 18 short weeks.  It's just crazy.  It's happening so fast!  It's not just us any more.  I'm so worried about everything.  So worried about money, and health insurance, and just making it all work.  We are going to be SO POOR.  Like, WOAH.  Like, "hotdog water soup" poor.  Babysitting will help tremendously, and Zumba will help keep me in shape, and help a small bit with money, but it's still going to be crazy.

Speaking of being poor and having no money, I'm having Crystal order me a pair of Large Cargo pants, since my mediums no longer fit.  **disgruntled squinchy eyebrows**  I'm going to sell 2 pairs of cargo capri's though to make up for it.  I had this illusion that I was going to be able to wear my stuff all throughout the pregnancy, but I guess with the 15 pounds I've gained so far and more to come....that was a silly thought.  I need to eat better.  What was I thinking when I brought home a gallon of ice cream?!  And the carb loaded lunches at work do NOT help at all---not one bit.

Ok.  That's all for the moment. :)

Monday, October 3, 2011

We're Having A Boy!!

Here are the ultrasound pictures from today!

It's a boy!

3D pic of face and upper body

2 feet!

Creepy Eye
So excited to know what it is!  I knew it was going to end up being a boy.  Can't wait to go buy boy clothes!  Might have to wait for next pay check though...

19 Weeks, 6 Days: Boy Chicken, or Girl Chicken?!

IDK but we'll find out in T-2 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weighing in at 125 pounds today.

Hip is still aching.

Blanket is coming along, one row at a time.

CAN'T WAIT!!!!

Thursday, September 29, 2011

19 Weeks, 2 Days: Chickie Nuggies and Cookies for Dinner

I don't have the neimann pick gene!!  Which means that there is no chance of little chicken having it.  I'm so happy and relieved.  I didn't really think that little chicken would have it, but it was still a nagging worry that I had.  I feel much better.

Zumba® was pretty tough tonight.  My stomach was cramping up for most of the class, and I was also really tired and out of breath.  My hips are bothering me lately.  Sore.  I had a massage last Friday.  Felt so good.  Wish I had the money to do that every week.  Might have to be a monthly thing, though.  And I like my hot showers, too.

Started teaching myself to crochet on Monday.  I'm working on a blanket for little chicken!!  I'll post pics soon :)

Weighing in at about 125 pounds now....ahh!  Feels weird to weigh so much.  I've never really hit about 114.  Ultrasound is on Monday.  I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boy or Girl?!?!

Monday, September 19, 2011

17 weeks, 6 days: Doctors appt today!

So I'm almost 18 weeks.  Wow.  Only 22 weeks until Lil' Chicken makes her debut!  I AM SO SCARED.  But that's ok.  I feel like I'm going to get scared-er before the end!

I'm at 122 pounds today.  So I've gained about 10.  That seems so crazy to me!  That's like carrying Kiwi around all the time.

This morning when I woke up, my uterus was lopsided.  My belly looked bigger on the left side, and when I felt it, that side was hard while my right side was soft.  Can your uterus move around?   Now it feels centered...odd.

Work has been trying to kill me, I swear.  The past two weeks they've had me scheduled for 55 hours, and this week they have me down for 59.  That means my paycheck--pre taxes and insurance, will be around $1,152.  That seems low....hold on.  Nope.  Guess it's right on.  That's 34 hours overtime for two weeks--bleh.  Not that I'm complaining money-wise, however mentally and physically, I'm beat.  Had a breakdown the other night, which wasn't helped by coming home to find Kev was still playing video games at our friends house even though I told him I was leaving work and was cranky and crabby...
Anyways, so if this 50 something hour week thing doesn't end soon, I'm going to have to say something.  I can't keep up at this pace.

Not much really going on other than that.

I really like the idea of this nursery:


I think I'm going to go to Joann's today to see if I can get paint and canvases to re-create the pictures.  They are so cute.  I want to paint the toy box too--I'm thinking jungle leave or something.  I'd like to sand it down a bit more so I can re-paint it.  I wonder what all goes into paint stripping?

Anyways, I must finish my coffee so I can start drinking water so I am not dehydrated when I have to pee in a cup at the doctors office.

Monday, September 5, 2011

15 weeks, 6 days: Labor day labor really pays off!

So Kevin surprised me this morning by not having to work!  I so called it a few days ago--but he had me convinced that he had to work today.  Ha.  So we slept in until 10am, which is the longest I've slept in in the past 7 months or so. (And probably the longest I'll get to sleep in for the next 2-3 years or so lol)

We got up and I really wanted to go to IHop or Steak and Shake for some pancakes, but S&S stopped serving breakfast at 11am (it was 10:40am at the time) and they were the ones with the cheaper pancakes.  So after much grumbling, I made pancakes here at home with whole wheat flour and lingonberries and maple syrup.  YUM!  They were good.  And I was glad we made them here.  After that, we went and looked around Home Depot and ended up coming home with 1 fern and 1 hibiscus plant, 1 big bag of fertilizer, and a few other small things.  We had lunch at Burger King (2 whoppers, 2 drinks, and 2 fries for $6.99!) and then Kevin dropped me off to change clothes and get all sunscreened up while he went to Lowe's to get 13 bags of topsoil and a gallon of bleach.

Plants trimmed & fertilized, garden weeded, and a new layer of topsoil.

Spider webs & bugs swept away, & handrail bleached clean.
After that, we went to the back yard to repeat the process--the weeding, fertilizing & topsoiling anyways.  No pictures of this, was getting pretty dark by that time.  But we weeded about 140 sqft along the back of the back yard--we have a line of plants back there that we are hoping grow up to be a shady, shrubby, tropical wall of paradiseness.  After weeding, we fertilized, covered the plants with topsoil, gave everything--front yard and back yard--a good watering.   I really hope our plants live through this winter!!!

We came inside after this, showered and cleaned up a bit, and then Kev and I put up this shelf above the tv.

New shelf with pictures on it above TV.

The house is a bit of a mess--we're getting ready to rip up the carpet and put down new vinyl flooring that looks like wood.  Anyways, so stuff is just kinda around at the moment.  I'll post a pic when we get everything done.

But we got a lot accomplished today!  I'm pretty excited.  I used my birthday money one 2 new plants and on hopefully encouraging growth.  Plus the front of the house was looking hillbillyish.  I feel so much better with all the plants being trimmed up and bleaching the white handrail--it was so moldy looking!  

And good too--I'm pretty sure we're going to end up with the baby shower here at the house, so any sprucing up before that time will be very very helpful!

On a not laborious note, I got some maternity clothes from Jen that I work with!  So sweet of her--I'm going to have to write her a thank-you note.  I've got a good sized pile so far of keepers, and a few that I know I won't wear, so I'll give those back to her.  I think I'm just borrowing them, so hopefully I'll remember which ones are hers!  There's a belly band in there, which I'm SUPER excited about.  Some of the stuff is kinda big...but I suppose I'm only 4 months along...I have a ways to go yet before I decide what's too big haha.  I might end up surprised.

Oh yeah!  I did the baking soda gender test last night and it said "girl!"  I'm going to try again tonight and see what happens!  Maybe I better go drink some water....





Monday, August 29, 2011

14 weeks, 6 days: Headaches are Poo

So I've been having headaches the past few days.  Got some tylenol, not really helping much.

117-118 pounds today.  Glad I'm not really gaining too much.  I feel huge though.  I wonder what my final weight will be?  I hope not more than 140.  That means like, 22-23 more pounds and thats it.

Still can't feel Lil' Chicken yet.  I wish I could!!!  It's driving me crazy that I can't.  I feel sad.

I worked on the glider rocking chair cushion today.  Got the back support cushion mostly done.  It looks real good if you squint at it from far away.  And it looks decent I guess if you look at it up close.  It's pretty sloppy though.  Was NOT the easiest sewing project I've ever taken on, that's for sure.  One more cushion to go, then I get to figure out the fricken arm rests.  Gah.  Also, not sure what to do about the glider ottoman.  Hmm...

I am SO not ready for another week of work.  I hate working 6 days with only 1 day off.  It sucks.  I can't wait to stay home with Lil' Chicken!  I think I'll probably work some odd jobs--babysitting, Zumba, and whatever else I can pick up--but I'll try to keep it to minimum commitment jobs.  Or maybe I'll go part time after August.  Who knows?  I'll have to see how I feel.

My nipple was really itchy the other day.  I think it's doing odd things.  Guess that would be normal for pregnancy.

This headache is really obnoxiousing me.  grr.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

14 weeks: Pregnancy advice

So I've decided that I need to be documenting the advice I get from people on this special, memorable journey I'm on. I'll try to keep a general timeline, too. Maybe this will be advice AND comments...

11 weeks: No alcohol for you, Missy!!
12 weeks: You know, you have to be careful about cleaning the cat boxes!
12 weeks: You need to be careful doing Zumba!!!! Are you sure it's ok?!
Yesterday: You sure did wait long enough. I was afraid you decided to never have kids *said through tears* (I'm 23 years old)
Today (14 weeks): My advice to you is to show the child love (**Blink. Blink.**)

Epic. Just epic. And this is only the beginning!

117 pounds today. Feeling fat, but not too bad with symptoms!!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

13 weeks, 5 days: I stepped on the scale at Publix.

I stepped on the scale at Publix and it said 120 pounds!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Granted, I was wearing full clothes (a sundress and flip flops), hadn't pooped or peed in a while...and any other excuse that could make me fatter than I really am.

Balls.

I'm sticking with the "I've gained 5 pounds" mantra.

Gah.

Anyway's, my lower back/upper hip-als were bothering me something fierce yesterday.  I seem to like sitting lately.  Standing for long periods of time is torturous.  Still feeling fat.  Feeling like I'm fatter than I should be at this point.  I think it's because I didn't really get sick and stop eating like many people do during the first trimester.  Hmm..

Had a dr. appt on Thursday last week.  It half got cancelled because the Doctor had an emergency c-section or something, and then a deposition to attend after that...so yeah.  But they still managed to work in the blood work!! (**unamused face**)

The blood work was horrible, in my opinion.  I was crying before I even got in the room, and it took forever, and a nurse, the blood lady, and Kev had to distract me (I wasn't really distracted though) enough to let her do it.  I was a hot mess.  Not my favorite thing to do.  I survived though (barely).  I have to admit she was good--I'll never let any one else touch me or my veins with a needle.

Speaking of veins...I have spider vein bits!  8 of them!  AHH.  Ugly legs, here we come!  Fudge balls.

nipples.

ok i'm done now.

Monday, August 15, 2011

12 Weeks, 6 Days: Home From Atlanta

Finally home :)  I'm so thankful to have today off before I have to go back to the daily grind tomorrow.  I'm not really looking forward to going back to work.  I've enjoyed my time off and spending it with Kevin, especially since he'll be enrolling in school in a few months and I won't see him hardly at all.

I am getting excited about being a SAHM though.  I don't know how we're going to do it, I just know that we have to.  We will make it work.

Anyways, we went to Ikea in Atlanta when we were there and then in Orlando on the way back home yesterday.  We got a changing table!!!!!!  And a lamp.

Ikea Changing Table--That stuff is not at it's permanent location.  Just got excited is all  :)
Cloud Lamp.  Hanging from the ceiling.  Super cute.  Nice and Bright.
I also got some picture frames to frame stuff I've had sitting around for a year or so.  Also framed Lil' Chicken's first ultrasound pictures.

Now that I'm pregnant I keep seeing all of these cute little infants everywhere and I can't WAIT until we have ours!  It still seems unreal to me.  I weighed 117 this morning (bleh) so it's like, I know that I'm pregnant and whatnot--but I haven't felt the baby move yet, which makes me sad.  I keep trying to concentrate and feel it move, but nada!

Found 2 glider rocking chairs on craigslist.com.  I'm going to look at them today.  One I like more than the other, but the one I like is $60, and the other one is only $30.  So I'm going to see the $30 one first and if I don't like it we'll go get the $60 one.  I think.  Have to test them out and what not.  I wonder about upholstering the pillows?? Hmm....

Been experiencing light headedness, headaches, and I find I get out of breath easier/my heart rate climbs high over dumb things.  Supposedly that's normal though.  SOOOOOOOOOOOOO nervous and NOT looking forward to my appointment this week.  Blood work is not my thing.  I'm going to FREAK OUT.  FREAK OUT.  FREAK OUT.

AHHHHHHHHHHH

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

12 Weeks!!!!!!!!!!!

3 months today!  So excited.

Still waiting to feel lil' chicken move...  No such luck yet.

Put together the big leaf canopy from Ikea that we bought to go over the crib.  Might pick up a few more.  They are super cool

I've decided I want Kevin to help me make this really cool abacus that they sell at CB2 for $150.  It's like a giant wall decoration and it  would be super duper cute hanging over the crib or changing table.
So that's pretty cute, right?  So I'm going to buy wooden beads and paint them and have Kev put it together.  I'm excited.

Anyways, we went to the Atlanta Aquarium today!  Fun!  Really pretty fish:




I must say I love my Nikon Coolpix.  Amazing photos.  Yay!

Haven't stepped on a scale since I've been up here.  Guess I'll see the damage when we get home.  Boo.

Headache today.  Drank caffeine earlier and it didn't go away...so that kinda sucks.  Maybe if it doesn't go away over night I'll have to hunt down some Tylenol tomorrow.


Monday, August 8, 2011

11 weeks, 6 days: We're in Atlanta, B*tch!

Yesterday we drove 8 hours to get to our friends house in Atlanta!  We're going to spend a whole week up here, doing up Ikea, Coca-cola, the Aquarium, Zoo, etc!  I'm pretty excited.  And we get to see Bonnie and Carlos, who we hardly ever get to see.  Yay!

Still waiting to feel the baby move.  I haven't felt anything yet!  I keep hoping.  People on WTE Feb forum keep popping up who can feel little flutters or whatever.  Nothing here!  I can't wait to feel it.

It's nice to have a week off to relax and enjoy each other.  Come January when Kevin starts school, we're going to see a whole lot less of each other :(  But it's for the better.  And only for 8 months, hopefully.  I'm nervous about the future but excited, too.  Ok, time to go brush my teeth and put on some makeup.

Friday, August 5, 2011

11 weeks, 3 days: Poop and Coffee....placebo effect?

So I've had a whole 10 sips of coffee this morning, and a few minutes ago, I find myself running to the bathroom so I don't crap on my couch.

???

What is it with coffee and poop?  Can the coffee really wiggle its way into my intestines to supercharge my poop in a mere 15 minutes?  Is something else going on?  Or is my brain going "Oh, I taste coffee.  Signal the poop bus to leave in 15!!"

I don't get it.

Whatever.  Better than being constipated and having hemmies, I guess.

So I'm down to 114 this morning!!!!!  Which means I've only gained 3-4 pounds, not 5!!  YAY.  I'm not quite the hippo I thought I was!

So this is my bump first thing in the morning:

Real bump.  Pardon the bed-head.
I hope I remember to take another picture later in the day after I've eaten.  It's stupid.  I get huge.  I just had to post proof that I'm not a huge glutenous pig.  I only appear that way at the end of the day.

What else?

Oh yes.  So my Zumba® peeps now know I'm preg!  This was followed by me getting yelled at for not "toning it down" according to them.  What they don't know is that I HAVE toned it down--by about 200%.  I am perfectly fine to do anything I was doing pre-pregnancy while pregnant, as long as I listen to my body.  I swear I will lose it if they think they are ok to yell at me my entire pregnancy.  Just saying.  I'll have to tell them that the midwife that attends class is the only person I'll let mother me.  The rest of them need to keep their opinions to themselves.


Anyways...Let me start by saying that I love my husband more than anything on this planet, and that he is a great husband--the best husband.  This is a rant, and I must vent it because I am sitting on the couch stewing:  I had all these plans to get things done today.  Then my husband, as he's walking out the door to go to work today, yells, "Have a productive day, sweetheart!"  BLINK. BLINK.  So what am I doing?  Sitting my happy ass on the couch.

DON'T TELL ME TO DO THINGS THAT I'M ALREADY PLANNING ON DOING.

I'm so mad that he fcuking said that.  Now instead of it being me just getting things done and whatnot, I feel like I HAVE to do it, because he commanded me to.

Well good.  He can come home to a crap house today and do it himself.  Have a productive day.....makes me want to throw something.

My step-dad (lovely human being that he is) used to do this to me growing up.  I'd be walking down the hallway out to the garage to check the laundry and he'd go "Make sure you check the laundry!" But not in a nice tone.  Either way, I WAS ON MY WAY TO DO THAT.  I have to remember these things for when lil' chicken is born.  I want to be positive--I want to do things the nice and not yelling way.  I want to say things in a way that makes him/her want to help out, instead of making it like she's a slave and has no choice of her own.

Grr I could kick him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EDIT***

I feel better now.  Still didn't get much done today though.

Here's my "after" pic.  Not as bad as I was yesterday, but I think it's still noticeably different.



Look!  My upper belly fills in.  So weird.  That's where I feel "full" when I eat--my upper stomach.  Hmm....

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

11 weeks, 1 day: Still haven't told my mom...

So I've been 115 pounds the past few days...putting me at a 3-5 pound weight gain so far.  Poo.  It sucks being so hungry all of the time.  I must slow down so I don't end up gaining 40 pounds.

On to the topic discussed in the title:

I still haven't told my mom I'm pregnant.  I won't go into crazy details or anything--let's just leave it at my life has been a lot less stressful without trying to make someone happy who is unhappy whether I'm in the middle of the drama party or not.  So I decided not.  I got a random text message last week asking why I won't "give her anything" when I "hang out with my brother all the time".  She also said that she asks me to go to lunch with her all the time--except I can't find record of her asking me this.  (Not in any of the texts she's sent me since November of last year, and I didn't look at FB messages, but I can't recall this request more than once in the past 12 months)  Needless to say I didn't respond--didn't really know how to.....and now it's come to the time where I need to tell her about the pregnancy before she finds out from someone else but I don't know how to tell her....nor do I particularly want to.  Not so much that I mind her knowing, but rather I don't want to deal with everything that is going to come as a result of her knowing.  All I want is to be pregnant in peace, and I have a feeling that no matter how much I wish this, I'm not going to get my wish.

And it's not just my wish--more like, my demand.

This is supposed to be a happy exciting time.  Not a stressful time where I bend over backwards to make sure that everyone ELSE is good and happy.  F that.

Already I'm in the middle of the baby shower wars.  11 weeks....and i'm in the middle of a baby shower war.  **head shake**

So.  I'm considering the options of text message, facebook message, or mailing her sonogram pictures.  Not sure I like the option of her having pictures--so she can post them on her facebook and show them off like she has so much to do with this pregnancy or something--I think that would really really irritate me.  I mean, they're not even on MY facebook, and it's in MY body.

Facebook.

Facebook annoys me.

Still don't know what to do!  I have to figure this out soon....but I just don't know.

Let me just say how stupid it is that I'm even having to debate over how to tell my mom that I'm pregnant.  STOOPID.  SO STOOPID.

Ok i'm done now.

Friday, July 29, 2011

10 Weeks 3 days: From good to cranky

Good day I'd say for the most part, but now i'm grumpyish.  No idea why.  Well yes I do.  I wanted to go to Pizza Hut for dinner, but we're on a super strict budget, so I had planned on using cash that's supposed to be for gas.  Anyways, I had to pee, so Kev ordered while I was peeing, and paid with the card!  As soon as I got in the bathroom and started peeing, I knew he was going to that.  I was really annoyed because we're trying to be good with the bank card.  THEN we sit down in like, the coldest seat ever so after a few seconds, we decide to move.  When I stood up to move, I smashed my head on the fricken glass lamp above the table, so then I was really aggravated.  And then when we got the pizza, it wasn't the heaven I imagined it to be...so I was sad about that too.  I think they changed their cheese and their crust.  It just didn't taste like I remember it tasting.  So now here I am.  Deflated and grumpyish.

Monday, July 25, 2011

First Ultrasound Pictures!

So here they are:



The transvaginal ultrasound wasn't as bad as I thought--it was weird though, she had me put the wand in myself...that was awkward... but other than that it was just uncomfortable.  It was cool because we got to see the baby move! And it's heart beat was at like, 170 bpm.  I can't believe it's alive and well!  So excited.  We subscribed to the Disney Family Fun magazine--I was reading it in the waiting room and it's so cool!  So much cool stuff--family ideas, fun crafts, kids parties, and all sorts of recipes and cakes and what not.  Super awesome.  Can't wait to get that in.  But yeah.  We're having a baby!!!

9 Weeks, 6 Days: First U/S in a less than 5 hours

I'm so nervous and excited.  I wonder if it's a regular ultrasound or a transvaginal?  I hope it's regular.  Hubby thinks it's just dandy for me to get half naked and be poked and prodded while he sits there in his business clothes.  I am not amused by this at all.  I think he should get half naked too.  For moral support.  And have blood work done.  Maybe I'll insist he donates blood every time I get blood work done.  Yes.  This sounds like a great idea.  Why not?  It's doing something good for others and letting him in on a little pregnancy bonding time.

Anyways...113#  today.  I haven't dropped down to 110# in 4 weeks.  I think that means I've gained 2-3#s so far.  Already?  Gah.  So I did the whole "let's try on all of my pants to see how fat I've gotten" thing.  I'm not sure I recommend this...and they wonder why pregnant women are hormonal and crazy...


Why yes, that is me at 9 1/2  weeks popping out of my jeans.  Here's the pile of pants that no longer fit me:


Yup.  Half a big tote full.  Sigh....I'm down to 1 pair of jeans and 1 pair of shorts.  Everything else is yoga pants or pajama pants.  Dresses, anyone?

I was invited to a Ladies Night Out with my Zumba friends that was being held at the club that I work at....and I decided not to go.  I really wasn't comfortable going since I work at the club, for one, but being pregnant amounts to the other 4 reasons I didn't want to go.  Can't drink, Don't fit in my cocktail dress, I don't have $40 to spend on that, and I also don't want my coworkers to think I was drinking when they do find out that I'm pregnant.  No one really knows yet, since the U/S is today..I've been waiting.  I'm sad I couldn't go...but they'll understand come next week or so.

Well that's all for now.  Hopefully I'll have an U/S pic to post later!


EDIT:

fuck.  just found out it's transvaginal.  Really?  Why?  Everyone raves about this Ob/gyn but I have not been amused so far.   Not at all.  First appointment was bogus--yes, you have a uterus, and pee in this cup so we can do the same pee test that you did to confirm your pregnancy.  Blink.  Blink.

I do not like this one bit.  I think I just want to be pregnant in peace.  Next pregnancy will be with a midwife.  I don't care if we DO have to pay out of pocket for it.  GRRRRRRRRR

Saturday, July 23, 2011

9 Weeks, 4 Days: Had no internet for a few days...

Still preggo!!

And bloated.

Yeah...that's food baby.  Not  baby, baby.  Notice my grumpy face.

Gained about a pound or two I think.  I no longer drop down to 110.  My lowest for the past 2 weeks has been 112.  This morning was 115.  Tough to tell.  I had a big dinner last night, so that could be why.

Still getting nauseous when I don't have any food in my stomach.  I just have to eat a little here and there to keep something in my stomach.  I've been pretty cranky and moody lately.  I have a very short fuse--doesn't take much to make me snap.

I think I'm going to tell my boss next  week that I'm pregnant.  I asked his son how he thinks he'll take it--he in turn asked his mom, who thinks I'll be fine.  Which is awesome.  My boss can be uh...a little uh...crazy, to put it nicely.  So I was nervous about telling.  But I need to tell him before someone else does or he figures it out.  So.  Next week it is (eek!!)

Working on our impossible budget.  Here are the details:

Together we make about $2,800 a month.  Notice there is no fun money budgeted.
So this is assuming that we take any cash we get--babysitting, Zumba, or Kev driving for work--and use it to buy gas with so that the $600 goes directly towards paying down the gas card so we can be rid of it  by February.  We JUST added the newspaper on Sundays only so that we can clip coupons.  I'm trying to be a SAHM come Feb, but it's looking pretty grim.  Kev makes just short of $2,000 a month, and our $300 a month discover loan is going to kill us!  Car payment could go too....ugh.  We are SOO going to have to get rid of the internet :(  I'm not giving my iPhone up though.....

So speaking of budget, I went shopping at Once Upon a Child!  Bought the top right 2 pairs of shoes in this pic:


I put the others back :(  We could totally have a boy and then I'll be sad that I spent so much on girl stuff.  They are soo cute though.  Got a couple of maternity tops, too.

Anyways, that's all the news that is news!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

8 weeks, 1 day: Exhausted and Feeling Like Bleh.

I almost wonder if my nausea and exhaustion have kicked it up a notch this week?  I know that I have gotten crankier.  My patience level is running at minimum capacity, unfortunately for Kevin.  I have a very short fuse, partly I assume due to hormones, and partly due to being tired and hungry and nauseous.  It's so hard to be all of these things at the same time.  And it's not like I can take anything for it.  I kind of just have to deal.  Yesterday I took a 2 1/2 hour nap, and I took a 1 1/2-2 hour nap today as well.  I'm also bloated and fat looking.  I went to Target to buy a bathing suit--something that would maybe hide my belly a little--and ended up almost crying in the dressing room after not fitting into size Large swim bottoms.  I weigh 112 pounds!! Are you kidding?!  Do you have to be a fricken super model to fit into a LARGE now a days?  IDK but I find the whole thing ridiculous.  So instead I bought a brown and teal polka dot/whale shower curtain and matching teal towels for Lil' Chicken's bathroom.  Much more baby friendly than what we had before.  Screw the bathing suit.  I think I'll just keep my clothes on and stay out of the pool.  Or something.  Who knows.  Not me.

I should have practiced the routine to Rumba today since I'll be teaching it tomorrow (I think, anyways) but I was so tired I couldn't manage it.  I pray to God that I'll find the energy to do a whole class tomorrow.  Things haven't been looking so good this week so far.  We'll see, I guess.  I'd really really like to take a nap in between work and class, but it's kind of impossible.  I'd have to get out of work AT 2:30, bust my rear-end home, power sleep, and rush back to be there at like, 5:15.  (40 minute drive home, 40 min drive to Zumba)  Plus the cost of gas in this whole equation.  Not looking good at all.  Speaking of Zumba, I'm not even sure what I'm supposed to wear tomorrow.  (**eye roll**)  I don't even want to get started on the whole Zumba clothes debacle again.  I do know that I'm supposed to wear the capris that won't stay up.  Lovely.  A show for all.  No idea on the top though.  Guess I'll bring a variety.

Anyways, feeling tired again.  I may crawl into bed and start a new book.  Still can't wait until I start to feel better.  I'm getting really sick of feeling down in the dumps 24/7.  And they wonder why we're moody.  Hmm..

Monday, July 11, 2011

7 weeks, 6 days

2 Months  tomorrow!!!  I haven't posted in a few days because I've been at the 10th Annual Zumba Instructor Convention!  So exciting.  Too bad I was EXHAUSTED and not into doing much of anything..... (sigh) but that's ok.  I'll have more energy for next year.

Me at the Sat Night Glitter and Glow Party (blacklight)

Waiting for Zumba Sentao to start--AWESOME CLASS!!!

Lil' Chicken's First Zumba Outfit!!!!!

Can't wait to get my energy back!  Should be in another 4-8 weeks or so.  I slipped and fell at Walgreens--hope the baby is ok.  I haven't had any spotting or anything, so I think I'm fine.  Scared the crap out of me though.

Nothing much new really--still 112#, haven't gained anything!  (not complaining!!)  Going to try to keep it in the 25# range.  I'm pretty small so I think that's a reasonable number.  9#s for baby, 2#s for boobs, and then I guess 14# for the placenta, uterus, and amniotic fluid, plus any fluid retention...sounds good to me.

Anyways, off to check the WTE board to see what's up!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

7 weeks: Purging and bring in more stuff....LOL

So I found a really cute platypus stuffed animal (59 cents) and a few cardboard books (39-59 cents each) for Little Chicken!  I also found her a pair of size 2 pink high top converse :)  ($3!!)  So excited.  Good thing we're purging so that we have room for all the new stuff.  I put a bunch of stuff on craigs list, so I'm hoping it sells.  Not so much for the money (although that's nice too....) but rather just to get it out.  I would really like to get a solid $50 for the movie theater Twilight poster, though.  It's huge.  Like, 2'x3' or something.  My friends brother worked at AMC and she gave it to me for Christmas.  Fricken awesome.  Wish DH would let me put it up!! No where really to put it anyways...but still.  Shame to get rid of it.  Also selling my old sewing machine, printer, laptop case, books, and other stuff.  Hope it sells!

7 weeks: Time to purge and start fresh?

Any one else feeling the urge to purge?  I want to get rid of all the superfluous stuff that is just hanging around the house.  All the "STUFF" that I just haven't had the heart to get rid of.  I want the baby to come home to a nice clutter free home.  Nice, open, bright colored and happy environment.  Although the irony in this is that the baby's room is probably going to end up with the most clutter....but I'll figure that out.  I want to start the transition of moving breakable things/book and other things that could easily be destroyed in the upwards direction.  Baby safe things only up to a 3 ft elevation.  Or locked in cabinets.  I just have so much crap!  I think I'll take pictures and make a craigs list post later.  I've got a canon printer, lots of photoshop/illustrator books, purses, old sewing machine, lots of books in general, some coffee table decorations, a vacuum (switching over to vinyl instead of berber carper), and who knows what else.  But I'm thinking if we can make even just a hundred bucks or so, that's a new crib for the baby.  And we're looking more purged than before.  (**shrugs shoulders**) So IDK.  Sounds good to me.  I'm a little worried about the TV.  We don't have cable and we don't really use it much, except for movies and video games, but we're going to try to keep it off as much as possible around the baby.  I just hope it doesn't become a drawing pad or something.  I wonder if they make invisishields for tvs?  If not they should!! OMG i might be a millionaire....

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Week 6, Day 4: photo!


Still no bump!  I'm just full from eating :)

Week 6, Day 4: In home daycare?

Thinking about starting an in-home day care....might be a good way to be able to stay home with little chicken and make some money, too.  It's kind of hard to find out what all I need to do, but I'm going to keep looking it up.  Maybe when I'm less tired though.

Feeling pretty good today.  Less nauseous and a little less tired.  Still about to fall asleep right NOW! Ha.  Boobs still sore and getting bigger, I think.

Bought some more stuff!  I love that I'm mostly keeping to thrift stores and what not.  Definitely saving money.  It would be much worse if I was spending at full price.  I can't wait to find out if it's a boy or a girl.  Still hoping for a girl first!  I just feel like it will be more willing to play with a younger brother as opposed to the other way around.  Plus I've already bought dresses.....

Ok.  Just wanted to check in.  Been so tired lately!

Oh yeah--still about 112# and eating PIZZA!  I had pizza like, 5 times this past week?!

Monday, June 27, 2011

$40 breast pump!


Wow!  It's a medela double pump, goes for about $250 on Amazon!!

Also got a box of maternity clothes for $20 :) YAY!!!

Week 5, Day 6

Almost at 6 weeks!  Yay!  Half way to safety!  I can't wait.

Hold on...pee break....

Look how pregnant I am!  Wow!
I needed a better picture.  Apparently the one I took with the first FRER (6/15) isn't dark enough?  I keep showing people a picture of it and they all go: "So...you're not pregnant...right?"  And I'm like..."Really?!"  WOULD I BE SHOWING YOU A PICTURE OF A PREGNANCY TEST IF I WASN'T PREGNANT?!

Ok.  So I wasn't that mean.  But I mean...really.  Ha, I should have said "yeah.  Not pregnant." and put the picture away.  (eye roll).  Geesh.  If THIS picture doesn't get the point across I don't know what will.    My pregnancy line totally owns the control line on todays test!  Woot!

So my boobs were sore yesterday! A little sore today, not too bad though.  Slept 10 hours last night.  Was in bed before 9.  Actually, was asleep on the couch before 9.  No idea when Kevin put me to bed.

The house is a mess.  We need more storage options.  IKEA, anyone?  We're going to go when we go to Atlanta!  Can't wait.  I need to compile a list!  Also, I want to get rid of anything we don't want or need.  I don't want to have superfluous crap lying around when the baby is born.  We also need to work on migrating our possessions higher off the ground so that our little one won't be able to destroy them as easily.  Notice I said "as easily."

www.shitmykidsruined.com  

Check it out.  Pretty amazing.

Still 112# today!  Yay!  I've been 113# the past few days, so I'm hoping to stay in this general area for a little longer, at least.  I don't want to gain more than 30 pounds.  That will put me at 142#!  Woah!  I just have to try to be good and not over indulge.  It's hard when you're hungry all the time.  I'm trying though.  Little chicken doesn't need much right now.

ya!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Week 5, Day 4

Here's my non-existing baby bump! LOL
5 weeks, 4 days

Been super super tired.  Came home yesterday and took a nap before Zumba.  I did Zumba this morning, and I have to work at 2:30, so I was thinking about taking a nap from 12-1pm, then showering, and getting ready for work.

No gained weight yet!  Yippee!  Zumba is getting a little easier.  Doing it first thing in the morning was good, I think.  I had fresh energy.  Not much nausea, just hunger.  Some things do seem to turn my stomach, and I've kind of had an aversion to sweets, which is odd but AWESOME!  I need to call the doctors office and find out what to expect at my appointment on the 18th of July.  Probably blood :(  I'm going to ask for a sedative.  I'll seriously freak out.  Thinking about makes me light headed.  Ugh.

Nap time!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Week 5: So I decided we're having a girl.



I mean, really....how are you supposed to resist all this stuff?!?!  You can't leave a newly pregnant lady alone for 3 hours with $30 spending money and expect her not to spend it on possible gender inappropriate clothing....

And the stuff was so cheap!!!!  Once Upon A Child is amazing.  It's owned by the same company as Plato's Closet, which means it's used but good condition, name brand kids clothing for thrift shop prices. It doesn't get any better than that!  Wow!

So--exhaustion!  I'm actually prying my eyes open right now so I can type up this blog.  I feel like a pin has popped me and let out all the air that was my energy.  I was feeling a little  nauseous during lunch so I didn't eat much.  May have been my prenatals.  Got super hungry later.  No cramps really today, but my stomach muscles feel weird--like they have less strength in them or something.  I'm afraid to strain them.

Also, bloated and gassy--but that may have been from drinking Sprite.

112#, 98.06ºF

Monday, June 20, 2011

Week 4, Day 6

Nothing new here really.  Still tired and getting ravenously hungry at the spur of a moment.

Temps are staying high (yay).

Probably going to retire soon for the night.

zzZzZzzZZzzZzzzZzzz

Also, I feel like my heart races easily and I get out of breath easier.

Also also, my pubie stubbles are bothering me and they never really have before.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Week 4, Day 4

Well, I just got up and now I'm heading to work for a 14 hour day!

Love it.  *sarcasm*

Wish I could take a nap.  Maybe I'll get lucky and not have to stay the whole day.

Doubt it.

Wish me luck!

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I got to leave at 3pm!  HOORAY!

Friday, June 17, 2011

Week 4, Day 3

Still in shock.

Told my parents, brother, and g-rents today.  I hope they can all keep the secret.  We tried to do this really cool "lets take a family picture" and then blurt out "we're pregnant!" but no one reacted or moved!  We were like, really?!?!?!

So I guess it's kind of real now...

So crazy.

I am going to be so fat.

I'll probably have to take off my wedding rings.

I hope my head doesn't swell.

And I could really do without hemorrhoids, too.

Week 4, day 3! I am so ungodly tired.

I was so exhausted yesterday! I am so yawny! Holy poo! Still can't believe that I'm pregnant. I mean, wow. I keep talking to little chicken. I think he appreciates it. Do I really have to birth him? Maybe we can invent teleporting by then. I'll start working on that. I still don't have sore boobs or any symptoms other than exhaustion. A few cramps here or there, but that's it. I'm really hoping that the Zumba convention won't be too much for me. I'm so excited. About everything. Wow.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

CD 30: Well I guess I won't be getting a tattoo this weekend.....

BECAUSE I GOT A BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Left: 5/15  Center: 5/13  Right 5/12


Ok, so here's what happened.

Monday morning before I went down to Port St. Lucie/South Florida to do a charity event with Chef, I POAS because you know, no period yet, temps are still high at this point, and I knew we were probably going to have a few drinks at the end of the night.  BFN.  So I was like, ok.  Grabbed a tampon to keep with me because I had felt a few cramps.  The event went great, had a rum and coke there and then a few more drinks over the course of several hours when we got back to Chefs house.  I was pretty toasty.  Toasty enough that I had to sit and wait a bit before I could lay down to go to bed.

Tuesday was fairly miserable.  Forgot to temp.  More cramps (light ones) so I put a tampon in since I knew AF was coming.  I was exhausted from the night before, and after work, I had to drive an hour to babysit.  I took a 20 minute nap along the way.

Today I woke up and took my temperature.  98.07ºF.  At this point I'm figuring that I ovulated a few days later than I thought I did.  I get up and go into the bathroom.  I pull out the tampon and start peeing. I realize the tampon is clean, so I stop the stream, pull out a POAS, and test.  And as I'm watching it, I'm doing this blinking thing--trying to clear my vision from just waking up.  I couldn't fricken believe my eyes.  There it was.  2 lines.  HOLY SHIT.  I looked at it 10 more times.  Still there.  I couldn't even gather my wits together enough to do anything fun for Kevin.  I pulled back the shower curtain (he was already in the shower) and held up the stick.  He thought it was a positive OPK lol.  Then he's like, "and you're sure you've never seen anything like that before?  Never had 2 lines ever?"  So I grab the one from Monday out of the trash, and sure as shit there are 2 lines there, too.  YOU MEAN I COULD HAVE KNOWN SINCE MONDAY?!?!?!?!  I watched the silly thing for about 3 minutes before writing it off as a BFN and threw it out.  I would NOT have had anything to drink if I had known.  WTF.

So anyhoo, now my big issue is to figure out how to tell everyone that I'm canceling getting a tattoo on Saturday, after I already made my appointment. I think I'll go with the "I have to buy tires for my car" thing.

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg.

Monday, June 13, 2011

CD 28: My Chart is So Confusing.

I really have no idea when I ovulated.  Today is 16 DPO according to fertility friend.  I almost think I ovulated on CD 18 rather than 12.  But who knows.  Not me.  Still no AF though, but I'm keeping an eye out.  I should be starting any time now.

BFN this morning.  Temp = 98.00ºF

Saturday, June 11, 2011

CD 26: Still high temps, BFN.

I did have a few drinks last night though, so maybe that's why.

Lotiony CM this morning.

Temp: 98.06ºF

Zumba today! Lots of fun.  Good class.  Kevin puked this morning.  He only had a few drinks...must not have sat well with him.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

CD 24: AF should be coming soon....?

No temperature dips yet!  And apparently I could have ovulated on CD 14, rather than 12, which would mean we BD'd on ok days...maybe.  Temps are all still up, so I'm hoping!

I'm getting a tattoo, and I'd like to get it asap in case I get pregnant--I know a lot of people are against getting tattoos while preg, and I think that most tattoo parlors refuse to give tattoos to pregnant women.  So I'd kind of like to get it now instead of having to wait almost a year.  We'll see.  I'll post a pic when I get it. I wonder if/how it will affect my temps?

Sticky CM today.  I hate sticky.  So annoying.  Makes me want to change my underwear 4 or 5 times a day.

Temp was 97.86ºF this morning.

Zumba® Convention in 1 month! WEEE!  So excited.  Can't wait!

Then the next month we are going to Atlanta to visit our fellow hopefully TTCers!  Ha!  I wish, anyways!

I'll post again in a day or two :)  I guess no news is good news!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

CD22: not much on the news front

I tasted the raspberry sour dha/omega 3 gummies this morning. Not bad, not bad at all.

I wonder if I'll actually get AF on the 26th. Fertility friend and the WTE fertility tracker both predict that it will start that day. This is weird in my opinion since last cycle was so whack.

Hmm.....

Monday, June 6, 2011

Doctors appointment went well :)

Had my annual gyn appt today at 2:00pm at a different practice.  I'm very happy with my experience there. My doctor is super duper nice, and really cool.  She said to just relax and have fun for a while, have sex whenever and to not kill myself with charting and whatnot.  She even prescribed me a chewable prenatal vitamin :)

Too bad we'll probably never get pregnant with the "have sex whenever" method.

At least I don't have to change the litter boxes for a while.

Read more of scream-free parenting today.  I'm going to have to pick that up.  I love reading these positive discipline parenting books.  It makes me feel more in control.  And I think the more I read them and let the ideas and values sink in, the more natural using them will become.

Temp today was 98.13ºF.  I may have said that in my post earlier this morning.  No cramping, nipples are still sensitive.  Cm is pretty wet, but that may be left over from the dr. appt this morning?  I know that sounds weird, but you all know what I mean....

I was having a dandy day, and now I'm feeling down.  Kinda started with the whole sex thing I think, and then the car thing, and the lettuce thing, and now I'm just bleh.  Why do guys want sex, complain about not having enough sex, yet don't want it when you offer it?  2 days in a row.  Nada.  Unfortunately, you don't get babies without it...so...yeah.  And I didn't feel like driving home today but somehow I ended up doing so.  I don't know.  I just don't feel very social right now.  I don't really feel like doing anything.  I wanted to go over our financial situation since we suck at managing money, but now I don't want to.  Don't even care at the moment.  Bleh.

CD 21: Fertility Friend says I ovulated on CD 12....?

And I think that it's wrong.

The last opk I took, which was yesterday, had NO LINE whatsoever.  While the one on the 2nd had a pretty decent line.  I'd almost call it positive...but I'm not 100% on that.  I should have been taking pictures the whole time.  Sigh.

I have an annual appointment today.  Which I'm excited about/ dreading.  You know that love/hate relationship with that.  I really really wanted to BD 2 days ago and yesterday, but Kev was too tired :(  I don't want to hear a word out of him about being sad I'm not pregnant yet, is all I have to say about that.  I really think we missed out window this cycle.



Today's temperature was 98.13ºF, my highest so far.  I think I may have ovulated 6/3 or 6/4ish.  Yesterday afternoon/evening my nipples were sensitive to touch, and the day before I had slight cramping.  My nipples are still a little sensitive today.

I need to make a smaller, less poster-sized chart so I can bring it with me today.  I also need to gather my questions!  So I think I'll work on that :)

Thursday, June 2, 2011

CD 17: The past 5 days temps have been very spiky.

Up, down, up, down, up!

97.83ºF
96.97ºF
97.43ºF
97.20ºF
97.53ºF

Wow!

I wonder what that means.  Probably that I'm just all weird and junk.  It was being all normal and stuff until CD 12.   Weird.

Took an opk today.


I'm still calling this a negative because it's not as dark as the control line...but it's pretty dark, right?  If only this was a POAS!

Or maybe this is a +?  IDK.

I had kind of watery CM today.  Not super heavy, but it was there.  Zumba today :)  No other symptoms really.  I could swear I felt a hint of soreness in my lower abdomen earlier--but it almost wasn't even noticeable.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

CD 16: my brain is hurting.

So I decided to try to make a brilliant graph/chart thing in eXcel.  Figured it'd be pretty easy.  I want to make the ultimate BBT chart.

Phew.

My brain hurts.


This is what I was able to do so far.

I want to add CM, OPK, POAS, BD, Symptoms, and other stuff...but I'm not sure how yet.  This is a work in progress :)

Anyways,

-opk again today.  Light CM--creamyish.  Grumpy today--not totally, but a little.  Zumba today.  No other real symptoms other than the ball of my right foot hurting.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

CD 15: wow!

Still a - on the the opk. Had to pee in a dunkin' donuts cup and test since I'm not at home. And of course it was a HUGE DD cup, too!!! It was very exciting. And awkward.

Temp today was 97.84 F. CM=light and watery. Also a little on the light creamy side. No symptoms. Just been really tired in the morning. I'm interested to see if my temp rises even more tomorrow.

Yesterday not really sure about cm, but we did go kayaking, drink some, and spend a lot of time outside! Might be why I had a high temp today.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

CD 13: Temp spike today...did I ovulate? idk.

Hello!  It's been a few days!  Here's the update.

No + opks so far, at least none that "are darker than the control line."  I've had two that are kinda close....

...but that's about as dark as the line has gotten.

CD 11: 97.09ºF  Zumba, watery CM, nausea & lack of desire to eat
CD 12: 97.07ºF  Zumba--sub for crystal--super nervous, watery CM, pain lower left side of my abdomen.  nausea & lack of desire to eat. Bed at 2:00am
CD 13: 97.83ºF  Wake up at 7:30, wateryish CM, BD pm.  Slept at 74ºF instead of 72ºF night between cd 12&13

So this morning my temp was .76º higher than the previous days temp, and it is also my highest temp so far.  I'm curious to see if my temperature stays up or if it was just a fluke.  It would mean I'm ovulating on a kind of normal day, considering I'm pretty sure nothing happened last cycle.  I hope the temp spike doesn't mean it's game over...I guess it's possible to get pregnant if I did ovulate, but it would have been a full 5 days, so I think it's unlikely.  And we did BD tonight, but if the temp spike is from ov, it would mean too late, and that we missed it.  So I'm kind of excited to temp tomorrow.